Book Review: The Box of Noli's Bones by Felix Llamido, M.D.

I received a complimentary and autographed copy of Dr. Llamido's book(photo above) last week. It is a story of the Japanese-American War in the Philippines that happened during his childhood. The book is historical fiction or creative nonfiction which contained historical facts and his memories of the war as well as of his relatives and friends. It is well written and an engaging story. I finished reading it in three hours non-stopped with only one bathroom break. It was time well spent and better than watching television.
  
I enjoyed the book very much as it reminded me of my own and Macrine's( my spouse of 62 years) childhood experiences during the Japanese-American War in the Philippines. There are similarities and differences in the events described beautifully in detail by the author in his book and my own and Macrine's childhood experiences.

My experiences and recollections of the war as a child growing up during the Japanese-American War in the Philippines was discussed in detail in my autobiography ( http://davidbkatague.blogspot.com) as well as in my Hubpages.com writing account published on December 8, 2011.

 https://hubpages.com/literature/my-childhood-memories-of-world-war-2

The first major difference is my experience was in Panay Island whereas Dr. Llamido's book venue is in Luzon. Other events in the book that is similar to my own and Macrine are: water boarding ( artisan well vs the ocean high tides involving Macrine's grand father), monitor lizard vs a python encounters and the airplane dogfights hillside and meadows watching.

Dr Llamido and I during our college years in UP ( mid 1950's). Dr Llamido is squatting on the first row holding a newspaper. I am standing at the back row, 3rd from the Left.

For My first review of this book click on:

https://davidbkatague.blogspot.com/search?q=felix+llamido

Two other events in Dr Llamido's book that are very similar to my own are the Palawan Massacre and the Guerilla's methods of messaging. The Palawan massacre  reminds me of the massacre of my Mothers relatives (Balleza clan) in  Barotac Viejo, Iloilo that I discussed in my blog :

https://davidbkatague.blogspot.com/search?q=balleza+massacre

I am rating this book 5 star out of 5 and highly recommend it not only to history enthusiasts but also to all who love to read good books and history.

At the end of the book under Liberation, page 255 , the author was telling us of his encounter with a GI repeating a coded radio message which he did not understand. He was more interested in the Dentyne gum, the GI was distributing to the children.

" It was my first taste of gum--ever.  On the way home Dida asked, What did you do with your gum?  I swallowed it. 

I could see the disbelief in her face.  You are supposed to only chew it.  Now your intestines will stick together.  I did not sleep well that night as I waited to die.  

But I didn't and I am glad. If I had died, who would be around to write this story." 

This gum incident reminded me of my own chewing gum story.  I was enjoying my gum when a neighbor (younger) kid started following me and started begging for my gum. It was the only gum I have left, so with reluctance I spew it out and gave it to him so he would stop begging. Without hesitation, he put it in his mouth and chewed it with gusto.   I am not sure what he did with the gum after he finished chewing ( may be he also swallowed it) as I was just too happy to get away from him. 

For details on this book click on:

https://www.amazon.com/Box-NOLIs-Bones-story-Philippines-ebook/product-reviews/B07VCN67WP/ref=cm_cr_dp_d_show_all_btm?ie=UTF8&reviewerType=all_reviews

Personal Note: Dr Llamido and I were dormates at the University of the Philippines Mens South Dorm ( Narra Hall) when he was a pre-med student and I was a Chemistry student/ Instructor in the early and Mid-1950's. He visited me and Macrine with his son from Los Angeles in November, 2018 here in Northern California. We get reacquainted-thus getting a complimentary copy of his well-written and engaging book. Again, thank you for my complimentary copy of your book. May your book be one of Amazon's best sellers for 2019-2020.

Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitors as Anti-Depressants

Lisa Lings recent documentary in CNN on the dangers and harmful side effects of benzodiazepines, a drug prescribed to treat anxiety prompted me to do some search on antidepressants because I have two closed relatives taking anti-depressant medications. 

Selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs) are the most commonly prescribed antidepressants. They can ease symptoms of moderate to severe depression, are relatively safe and typically cause fewer side effects than other types of antidepressants do.

SSRIs treat depression by increasing levels of serotonin in the brain. Serotonin is one of the chemical messengers (neurotransmitters) that carry signals between brain nerve cells (neurons). SSRIs block the reabsorption (reuptake) of serotonin into neurons. This makes more serotonin available to improve transmission of messages between neurons. SSRIs are called selective because they mainly affect serotonin, not other neurotransmitters. SSRIs may also be used to treat conditions other than depression, such as anxiety disorders.

SSRIs (selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors) such as Prozac, Paxil and Zoloft revolutionized the treatment of depression and related disorders when they arrived on the market in the 1980s. But research has found that SSRIs can cause serious side effects ranging from withdrawal complications to birth defects to suicidal thoughts and behavior in younger patients.

Eleven percent of Americans aged 12 years and over take an antidepressant medication, according to the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention.
The use of antidepressants increased nearly 400 percent between 1988 and 2008. SSRIs are the most common class of antidepressants in the U.S. and are believed to be safer and generally cause fewer side effects than other antidepressants.

The Food and Drug Administration (FDA) has approved these SSRIs to treat depression:

• Citalopram (Celexa)
• Escitalopram (Lexapro)
• Fluoxetine (Prozac)
• Paroxetine (Paxil, Pexeva)
• Sertraline (Zoloft)

All SSRIs are thought to work in a similar way and generally can cause similar side effects, though some people may not experience any. Many side effects may go away after the first few weeks of treatment, while others may lead you and your doctor to try a different drug.

Possible side effects of SSRIs may include, among others:

• Nausea, vomiting or diarrhea
• Headache
• Drowsiness
• Dry mouth
• Insomnia
• Nervousness, agitation or restlessness
• Dizziness
• Sexual problems, such as reduced sexual desire, difficulty reaching orgasm or inability to maintain an erection (erectile dysfunction)
• Impact on appetite, leading to weight loss or weight gain

Which antidepressant is best for you depends on a number of issues, such as your symptoms and any other health conditions you may have. For details click on:

https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/depression/in-depth/ssris/art-20044825

SSRI's should not be withdrawn without consultation with your physician. Sudden withdrawal will usually cause patients to suffer SSRI discontinuation syndrome.

Dangers of Long term Used of Benzodiazepines

Photo from: treehouserehab.org

My heart and mind was filled with worry after watching Lisa Ling's CNN report on the dangers of long term use of benzodiazepines. Why was I worried? I have a very closed relative suffering from anxiety. I hope she is not taking a benzo drug. I did some Internet search and here's a summary of what I found.

Benzodiazepines are a class of drugs primarily used for treating anxiety, but they also are effective in treating several other conditions. The exact mechanism of action of benzodiazepines is not known, but they appear to work by affecting neurotransmitters in the brain, chemicals that nerves release in order to communicate with other nearby nerves. One of these neurotransmitters is gamma-aminobutyric acid (GABA), a neurotransmitter that suppresses the activity of nerves. Scientists believe that excessive activity of nerves may be the cause of anxiety and other psychological disorders, and benzodiazepines reduce the activity of nerves in the brain and spinal cord by enhancing the effects of GABA.

 Adult men and women use benzodiazepines to treat:

• Anxiety
• Nervousness
• Panic disorders
• Muscle spasms
• Seizures
• Sleeplessness
• Alcohol withdrawal
• Status epilepticus (A life-threatening disorder of the brain.)
• Premenstrual syndrome

Other uses for benzodiazepines

These medications also are used for:

• Sedation during surgery
• The treatment various types of anxiety disorders, for example:
  • Generalized anxiety disorder (GAD)
  • Social anxiety disorder (when antidepressants aren't effective)
  • Panic disorder (when antidepressants aren't effective)

Benzodiazepine drugs (also called benzos) are habit forming and can lead to addiction. Long-term use also can lead to tolerance, which means that lower doses will become ineffective and patients will need higher doses. These drugs are abused to get 'high' due to their effects on the brain.

What are the side effects of benzodiazepines?

Common side effects include:

• Lightheadedness
• Drowsiness
• Confusion
• Sedation
• Memory impairment
• Improper body balance
• Increase or decrease in appetite
• Nausea
• Vomiting
• Constipation
• Weight gain
• Dry mouth
• Reduced libido
• Fatigue

Serious side effects include:

• Respiratory depression
• Dependence and abuse
• Withdrawal symptoms
• Jaundice
• Seizures
• Suicide
• Slow heart rate
• Severe low blood pressure
• Fainting
• Akathisia (a movement disorder)
• Increased heart rate

Here is a list of examples of brand and generic names of benzodiazepines available in the US.

• alprazolam (Xanax)
• clobazam (Onfi)
• clonazepam (Klonopin)
• clorazepate (Tranxene)
• chlordiazepoxide (Librium)
• diazepam (Valium)
• estazolam (Prosom)
• lorazepam (Ativan)
• oxazepam (Serax)
• temazepam (Restoril)
• triazolam (Halcion)

Xanax, Klonopin and Valium are the most popular brands and widely prescribed.

For details read:

(https://www.medicinenet.com/benzodiazepines_sleep-inducing-oral/article.htm)

My Most Productive Week of Personal Blogging

First Week of Autumn- Photo from almanac.com

Last week was my most productive week of personal blogging. I wrote  six articles from October 6 to 13. The subjects varied from Dodies' first novel, Cloyne Court ( https://marinduqueawaitsyou.blogspot.com/2019/10/cloyne-court-by-dodie-katague-update.html )to Ditas resemblance to her Grandmother  (https://whyretireinthephilippines.blogspot.com/2019/10/ditas-and-grand-mother-paz-balleza.html).  I usually just write only 2 to 3 articles per week.

I wrote on a variety of subjects:Personal Relationships, Food, Mental Health, Retirement, Books and Family.

1.  A Thoughtful Relative and Neighbor

https://davidbkatague.blogspot.com/2019/10/a-thoughtful-relative-and-neighbor.html
 
2. Macrine's Favorite Lunch

https://myfavoritepinoydishes.blogspot.com/2019/10/macrines-favorite-lunch-and-other-pinoy.html

Lengua Tacos (Beef Tongue)-One of Macrine's Favorite lunches

3. Seventeen Years after My Retirement from the FDA

https://chateaudumer.blogspot.com/2019/10/seventeen-years-after-my-retirement.html

4. Coping with Grief- Ditas and Carenna

https://theintellectualmigrant.blogspot.com/2019/10/coping-with-grief-and-loss-of-loved-one.html

I am reposting the articles above in case you missed reading them. A  happy autumn day greetings to all my FB friends and relatives all over the world!

Here's Nat King Cole rendition of Autumn Leaves for your listening pleasure:

https://youtu.be/L1JiYe543x0

Topics in my blogs in the next two weeks: antimalarials, Benzo's, SSRI, diabetic and mirtazapine drugs

Ditas and her Grand Mother Paz Balleza Katague

Is there a resemblance between my youngest daughter ( Ditas Katague) and my mother (Paz Barrido Balleza Katague)?. A few of my relatives think there is. I think Ditas has more resemblance to my younger sister-Agnes or her first cousins Jemma and Krisheil. Judge for your self in the following photos.

Latest two pictures of Ditas

Mama Pacing and My Siblings, 1976

Amor (Knitz) Wedding- Agnes is in front row to the Right, 1976

My Three Sisters-Agnes is in the Middle

Ditas and Carenna, 2016

Mama Pacing and Me, Mid-1980's

Mama Pacing, Baby Agnes and Flocy visit with Igsoon Ceding and Family, San Jose, CA, 1979

Ditas First Cousin, Jemma Katague daughter of Erico( RIP) my younger brother

Ditas First Cousin, Krishiel Katague- daughter of Ruben-my youngest brother

CarennaKT September, 2019

Carenna latest photo, Age 16, Junior in high school- Ditas only daughter

Dealing with the Grieving Process

My heart melts with sadness and compassion, as I read the following paragraph from my daughter's FB page last month.

"With great humbleness in the span of 14 days, CarennaKT and I have had wonderful accomplishments. But to be truthful, it has been bittersweet. To have made the Top 100 list was a huge surprise - and yet the one person I wanted to celebrate with - Nick Thompson - my biggest supporter and cheerleader - wasn't here to celebrate. And thus the emptiness in my heart grows bigger.

And a week later - a huge milestone for our daughter, Carenna - passing her drivers license test (the first try) and no one believed 6 months ago that I would be able to teach her how to drive. And her Dad wasn't there to give her a high five and hug and tell her how proud of her he was.

And then finally this week - my interview on the "Getting Curious with Jonathan Van Ness" @curiouswithjvn podcast went live. I love the title "Why is the Census So Majorly F**king Important? with Ditas Katague aired and the promo videos - I was told had over 200K views/plays. All of this should fill my heart, but it is empty - because the joy that I should feel is always shadowed with the grief I have been hiding from - and it comes after me like a stealth golden owl hunts it prey in the darkness.

So I walk with my grief, and I realize I cannot bury myself in work or travel or sheer exhaustion. I realize I must sit and feel something I avoid - because if you avoid joy, you can avoid grief? Only if you are numb...being numb, would be easy to lack compassion, to not care, to walk around as the empty shell that I am.

Many may say - gosh it's been 7 years "aren't you over it yet'? I was asked this by a close relative. Actually, it was directed at Carenna just 10 months after her Dad died - I was asked, "aww, isn't she over her Dad dying yet?" Unbelievable. I know we are blessed to have many friends and family who do support us and I don't want to appear ungrateful, but some days after working another 80 hour week, the lack appreciation is real. Enough feeling sorry for myself - back to being numb".

My wife and I felt helpless to alleviate our daughter and grand daughter sadness and grief. However, we want them to know, we are here and if there is anything we can do, just let us know. Here's some wisdom and information I found on how to deal with the grieving process.

How to deal with the grieving process

While grieving a loss is an inevitable part of life, there are ways to help cope with the pain, come to terms with your grief, and eventually, find a way to pick up the pieces and move on with your life.

1.Acknowledge your pain.
2.Accept that grief can trigger many different and unexpected emotions.
3.Understand that your grieving process will be unique to you.
4.Seek out face-to-face support from people who care about you.
5.Support yourself emotionally by taking care of yourself physically.
6.Recognize the difference between grief and depression.

Source:https://www.helpguide.org/articles/grief/coping-with-grief-and-loss.htm

Here are some comments from DITAS Facebook friends:

1.Ditas we met just moments after Nick passed. I would never have guessed that you and Carenna had been through that by simply watching you. It was apparent that you both just had your stuff together. You have been honest about these troubles and as I have learned you better my respect for you deepens, both of you. There is no cure for grief. It doesn't end. You don't get the over the loss of such a person. Grief changes shape and color. I have found it helpful to remember the joy of my relationship with the person I've lost. Because grief wouldn't be there without a solid foundation of love and joy. When you mention Nick I hear that. I hear you mention your love and your joy. Thanks for continuing to feel and to express these thoughts.

2. Congratulations on your recent accomplishments Ditas! I fully empathize with your sentiments. It has been six years for me. One learns to live and celebrate again, but the void remains.

3. Lifting you in prayer and Hugs 🙏🏾

4. There will be many many more accomplishments. After all, we're talking about Ditas and Carenna! ✨⭐🌟 Nick is there for all of them. He's always there. Reminding ourselves of this helped us get through losing our dad on earth when we were young kids.

5. Feel what you need to feel! I love you both.

6. First off, congratulations to both of you for all of your accomplishments over the past two weeks, very cool. Thank you for sharing!!! I have been reminded time after time that pain and joy coexist. Your word, "bittersweet" sums it up. I read all of the posts before from your friends and family and they give support and wise advise. Trust that love remains forever, you are strong (and friggin awesome) it's okay to cry, it's okay to laugh, as Amy said, feel what you need to feel. All this to say, it sucks, it's hard and I'm sorry. We will carry it with us until we are reunited on the other side.

7. Thank you for sharing this. He was lucky to be so loved. Sending you a hug. Such important milestones and all so well deserved.

8. Ditas, I follow Martha Jo Atkins. She deals with death and dying and all that goes with it. I’ve found her posts and those who follow her to be insightful and comforting.

9. I love you, Ditas. You bring so much joy and inspiration to everyone who knows you.

10. Hugs and love to you and Carenna! You can always count on me, my dearest cousin! Love you!!! Yu’ve been so incredibly strong and composed... just let go. Don’t be numb. Cry, laugh, cry again. We’re here for you both!

11. Ditas-Thank you for letting us in and sharing your truth. My identical twin sister died 23 years ago and that loss and grief took much of me with it. I understand much of your pain my friend. While the path of grief is yours that you must take you’re surrounded by so many of us who love you and are here for you during this journey. Be brave my warrior and you can and must do this. I’m here for you. ❤️

Here's a short Ted Video about coping with Grief

: http://t.ted.com/SLw0qFU

SEVENTEEN Years After My Retirement from the FDA

Three of my more than a dozen FDA Awards-Equal Employment Opportunity (EEO) award was my most treasured award.
Dr Janet Woodcock presenting my EEO Award Plaque, 1998
However, the award I will never forget is the CASH and Appreciation Award I received for my leadership to alleviate the sufferings of thousands of burnt victims during the terrorist bombing of the Pentagon and World Trade Center, September 11, 2001.

https://hubpages.com/education/the-day-the-world-trembled

I retired on October 31, 2002 from the FDA. So by the end of this month it will be exactly 17 years after my retirement from the Food and Drug Administration (FDA), Center of New Drugs, Office of New Drug Chemistry, Division of Anti-Infective Drug Products in Silver Spring, MD.

Today, I feel that my mind is not as alert compared to the previous years prior to my retirement. In addition, I also missed my interaction with my fellow workers and my Chemistry reviewers that I had supervised.

While writing this article today, I feel very happy and accomplished as I reminisced my professional life and career.  It is rich and filled with pleasant memories, but not with Gold or Money.

My life is not rich in terms of dollars or pesos, or material possessions( luxurious villas or mansion here or abroad, and expensive cars) but in pleasant memories and accomplishments.

https://whyretireinthephilippines.blogspot.com/search?q=afterglows

The following are the reasons why I feel very accomplished although not rich in gold, pesos or dollars and how it was attained. How was this attained?

First, I grew up in the 1940's in the midst of the Japanese-American War in the Philippines. My father at that time was a Dental Officer for the Philippine-American Guerrilla Forces in Panay and Romblon Islands. Thus, I did have a lot of contacts with American GI's from all parts of the US. These contacts initiated and triggered my desire and ambition to someday see and visit the US. ( I had no desire or dream to reside in US at that time)

https://hubpages.com/literature/my-childhood-memories-of-world-war-2

Second, my elementary and high school years were also filled with accomplishments. I graduated with honors in 6th Grade and valedictorian in my high school class. Except for a bullying incident in my freshman year, I had pleasant memories of my elementary and high school years.

Third, my college years at UP, Iloilo and Diliman, Quezon City were also filled with scholastic achievements. I received the Fernando Lopez Scholarship in Iloilo for attaining the highest grade in the whole university. In Diliman, I graduated with a Bachelor of Science Degree in Chemistry missing 0.02 points to graduate CUM LAUDE(with honors).

https://davidbkatague.blogspot.com/2011/12/chapter-4-my-college-years-1951-1955.html

Fourth, my graduate school years at the University Of Illinois in Chicago were also filled with pleasant memories. Those years were the hardest years of my life. Those years started with seeing my first snow in US, followed by raising three children ( my 4th child was born after my graduate school years) while a graduate and teaching assistant and culminated with my doctorate degree in Pharmaceutical Chemistry in 1964.

https://davidbkatague.blogspot.com/2011/12/fda-years-and-maryland-1990-2002.html

Fifth, my professional career working as a chemist for 20 years for three private companies and later for the federal government (FDA) for another 12 years ( as team leader) were unforgettable. My years in FDA were filled with awards and challenges. My 12 years in FDA was the most productive years in my professional career. My superiors informed me that I was the first Filipino-American Chemistry team leader in the Center of New drugs in the history of the US Food and Drug Administration. My Involvement with the United States Pharmacopeia was also one of the professional achievements I will always treasure.

https://davidbkatague.blogspot.com/2017/02/my-involvement-with-united-states.html

Sixth, Macrine ( my spouse of 62 years) and my involvement with the activities of the Filipino-American Community in the Washington, D.C., Kansas City, Missouri, Modesto and Pinole, California were memories that we will treasure and will never forget as long as we live.

Last, but not least were the civic, social and humanitarian projects that Macrine and I had been involved since the early 1960's here in the Philippines and US. Our involvement with the Marinduque International, Inc medical mission projects since 1996 to the present are memories we will never forget.

https://hubpages.com/politics/medical-mission-of-love-to-marinduque

Indeed, my wife and I are not rich in GOLD or SILVER, but in MEMORIES, ACCOMPLISHMENTS and relationships(thoughtful relatives and neighbors).
 
https://davidbkatague.blogspot.com/2019/10/a-thoughtful-relative-and-neighbor.html

For details of the above accomplishments and activities, visit my blog site at

http://theintellectualmigrant.blogspot.com 

NOTE: Advance Happy and Safe Halloween to ALL!

Macrine's Favorite Lunch and Other Pinoy Dishes

This is Macrine's Favorite lunch-Fish Taco Garnished with Cactus and Tomatoes salad.

Macrine enjoying her fish taco with cactus/tomato salad and  a dash of  mild Picante sauce

Her second choice of lunch is lengua ( beef tongue)* taco. Both tacos we purchased at our nearby Mexican restaurant- Tres Hermanos. On Tuesday the lengua taco is on sale for only $1.99 each. However, the fish taco is always $2.97 each all week.

There are several good Mexican Restaurants within 10 miles distance from our residence. As a promotion to attract more customers,our Bath lady informed us that on Wednesday, the tacos are only $1 in Elk Grove- about 30 minutes drive from our residence. Tres Hermanos is very popular. On weekdays from 11AM to 1PM, the waiting line to be served is about 15 minutes. The food however is excellent and worth the wait.

* Speaking of beef tongue( lengua), my favorite recipe in the Philippines is lengua Estofado

Lengua Estofado- one of my  favorite Pinoy dishes for special occasion

For the recipe visit :https://recipenijuan.com/lengua-estofado-recipe/

For other Mexican dishes that Macrine and I also enjoy visit this site:

https://myfavoritepinoydishes.blogspot.com/2018/11/enjoying-mexican-food-beef-tamales.html

For My Favorite Filipino Dishes read:

https://hubpages.com/food/my-favorite-philippine-dishes

For Angela's Dimayuga 10 Essential Pinoy Recipes as Published in the NY Times read:

https://www.nytimes.com/2019/10/07/dining/filipino-food-recipes-angela-dimayuga.html?searchResultPosition=2